Solitary as an oyster.

- Is it wrong to desire to be alone? Company's great but sometimes all I want is my own space. I can't wait to have a place of my own, someday.. perhaps some little tiny corner of london where the rent makes your eyes water. 
- I know it's a cliche and a dream and it's not what it's cracked up to be. But I've always been motivated by independence.

- I think that's part of why I'm so crazy to get to University. Because there my two key principles are encapsulated - independence, and self-improvement through learning. I know it probably sounds pretentious to you but it gets me through the day.
- I always feel empowered by learning. It beats any self-help book. It's the perfect cure for the 'mean reads'. And it can be found anywhere. Books, Newspapers, Tv - learning is cheap and simple. 

- Am I sounding like a teacher? I don't mean the things you learn in a classroom that I suppose might be occasionally helpful but are fundamentally pretty useless. 
- The learning I mean is like finding some poet or famous battle or old movie, and literally learning everything you can about it/them. All because they momentarily brushed your interest.

- I love those little treasures in my memory. Like the time my best friend and I learned the entire French national anthem. And when I spent a week finding out everything there is to know about Marcel Duchamp, simply because I decided he was, for that week only, the most brilliant man in existance.

- Oh dear, I've wandered from the point a bit. The whole idea of this was to state, really, for my benefit, why I wanted to go to university. But also to remind myself that I am all these things without needing to go and study for three years, and without needing somebody to look after me. They're things I want but don't need, and in the worst case scenario, I'd live without them. 
- That's the funny thing. I go and learn stupid facts and forget everything I've ever learned about myself! I'm going to have to start writing myself notes and recite them daily.

NOTE TO SELF - you don't need a Degree or a Lover.

ALSO - sleep more, you look like shit.